tired and fed up

oh my.. where do I begin. I am tired tired tired. Have you ever just wanted somthing to be over. Like you're just so fed up with the situation and you're ready to give up but if you do you will only make matters worse? I don't know if any of this makes sense but what ever. I have been trying for practally 3 months to enjoy school and look at it with a positive attitude. And I have been doing better than I thought. I would find good things about it and when I couldn't find anything good, I would just suck it up. I have been doing a pretty good job of sucking it up and I've been telling my self it will get better but it's been three months...and it's not getting better. I miss support, I had it in Newfoundland, I had it at camp and it's hard to find here. I'm sorry for being so negitive but I can't help it. I like broke down last night and just started crying. Then I felt bad for crying cuz i felt like I was giving up.
What ever that was yesterday and last week, this is a new week maybe it will be better... I need to live by the moment. And at this moment I have the chance to breath and relax. So i'm going to grab it before it goes away...