Lessons Learned

The path way is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reasons
Why you brought me here
But just because you love me the way that you do
I will walk through the vally, If you want me to

It may not be the way I would havr chosen
When You lead me through a world thats not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

"A road with no obsticals, most likey doesn't lead anywhere"

With newyears comming up, i decided to look over the past year and think about what has happend. what I learned ect.. The biggest thing that happened is that I moved from Newfie-land to loverly Winnipeg. I think the biggest thing that I have learned, is that when you give EVERYTHING to God, he really wants everything. Not just the parts you feel like giving, HE wants it all, and for me I realized that included my comfort zone and security that I had in Newfoundland. But God has taught me alot about trust, that sometimes it looks like God doesn't know whats going on and you are left all alone, but really he is always there and slowly working through your life. Another thing that I have been reminded of is that when we are at our weakest, God is our strength and when we our weak, that is when we are left with no other alternative than to rely 100% on him.So really, I should be greatful for the hard times in my life, because I have learned alot of stuff that I wouldn't have learned if I didn't move away. AND I am actually starting to like it here! Maybe it's because it's Christmas break or somthing, or the fact that I quit Wind Ensemble. But I'm enjoying my time here and learning lots and lots, therefor, I have no reason to complain about this place nor do I even want to!

Family

I got this in an e-mail and found it put an interesting prespective on things enjoy :D

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.


He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."


We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.


But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.


Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.


When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.


He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.


While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,


"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.


Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.


Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.


He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."


By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.


I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.


"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.


I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."


I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."


I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."


FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.


And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?


Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

Training College

Ok so my parents are teachers at the train college in Down towm Winnipeg and have been teaching in a train college setting for the past 8 years, so I have seen how it works alot. I think that people should all contimplate going. People don't know that you don't have to become an officer to attend, you can just take cources. You learn alot about army mission and what the salvation army stands for through qualified teachers. The cadets I see all seem to enjoy there classes and I have been to some of the services and they are really good. I think that if people in the Salvation Army feel called to ministry, they should contimplate going to training college, even if it isn't to become an officer. It is in the middle of downtown Winnipeg you learn and see the reason William Booth started the army. There are also buildings where Booth has been in himself that you can see. The cadet residence are verry nice looking. Thats all I have to say about that.
I just hope that when people decide not to go to training college it is not becasue they think it looks boring or they don't want to be an officer but because God told them not to.

getting what you don't deserve

Ok so you know how some things are easier said than done right?? Yes so one of them is being nice to people who a) are not nice to you or b) not nice to someone you are close with.
So it's somthing I am trying to work on. Like if someone just acted really mean to me and then in the next five minutes needed to borrow 10 dollars or somthing...I think I should give it to them. ( this is just an example). Even though they don't deserve it, how many times have I gotten somthing I didn't deserve (lots). It's just so interesting of a concept. The bible says give without expecting anything back. I think this means more than giving of items, but like being kind to people knowing full well they will not be kind to you, or helping someone with somthing,not expecting them to return the favor or even say thankyou.
Jesus dd so much for us- and we deserve none of it. And we could never give him as great as a gift as he has given us. He knew that but he kept giving.
As followers of Jesus we should do the same.
And that is what I learned in the past 2 days

Wind ensemble

Today I quit Wind ensemble. It was really scarry and I felt ubber bad when I did it. But it was for the best. It is better to do a few things extreemly well than lots and lots of things with a half job. This is all around better for me but I feel like I let my teacher down. But there are things more important and I need to keep my priorities straight. God comes first everything else is seccondary. Wind ensemble was interfeering with to many things including my time with God. So I droped it. Thats basicly what I did to day

Could I ?

Could I just sit here a while?
Knowing theres nothing that I need to say
Safe in the knowelge that you know my way
Love me completly
No need to hide a thing
Could I?


This is one verse from a song. I have no idea who I it is by but it's a good song.
ONe thing I always forget to do is be still with God. I also sometimes forget to listen. I talk to much and forget to listen to what he is saying. This song is awsome. It reminds me how much God is in controle. I can just sit in my room with God- not having to hide any imperfections or give any explinations of my self because he allready knows and he still loves me. I don't need to worry about tomorow nor do I need to undersand why God asks me to do things. He has it all maped out. Why is the last question I should be asking, I think that if I MUST ask somthing (which is not allways the case) I should ask how. I do not need understanding, just trust. I know that God knows what he is donig and has a plan for me- thats enough.

Musiced out

Holly smokes this weekend I am palying music non- stop. I want to take a nap Ii a sooooo tired.
Today is our songster contata thingy at church so atomatically I will be singing all night BUT ON TOP OF THAT I am playing a violin solo and accompaning singing company on pianio and I am really nervous.
I am so scared it is going to bomb due to nerves or somthing. I really want people to enjoy and be blessed by the music tonight so I want to do my absolute best preformance for that. So hopelfully all will go well.
Sunday I also get to sing at a candle light sevice at the training college so by monday i will be exausted. Actually I'm exausted now but heY!!
Anyways I am going to take a nap before I have to go out for songsters!
Hugs and Prayers!!!

Today was very busy and stressful which made it kinda sucky. Latley I have found my life so busy that I rarely have time to stop and enjoy simple things and get excited about them like I usually do. I find my self worrying lots and getting overwelmed with everything I have to do latley and I have just been told by a teacher that the heat in the course is going to be cranked up and I am allready just hanging in there by a thred so I am full of worries. I need to remember to get excited over silly simple things again cuz when I do that I am much happier. This is somthing that can't be forgotten with all the crazyness in my life - cuz with out joy it will be verry hard to survive.
Now I am gonig to take a moment and write out simple things in my day that can vring me joy.
- I am wearing the purpple scarf Michelle from NFLD gave me
- I had subway today along with DR Pepper and Mrs Vickies chips
- I have a sponcer kid in Mexico who is a 3 year old girl
- I like my comphy TNA pants
- I also like my slippers - they have monkeys on them
- It was snowing this morning - i love snow
I AM SEEING NARNIA ON FRIDAY
Ok so the last one wasn't today but it is still exciting
Thats all for now
BE HAPPY!!

I think Winnipeg somehow needs to become closer ( much much much closer) to Ontario. Becuase I really really miss people and the majority of them live in Ontario. I miss like talking to my co every night and hanging out with Lilo and like talking to Pippi. Why does Winnipeg have to be far away. It allways seems that the people I care most about never live in the same provience as me :(.
I was gonna be able to visit Ontario but that is having some problems and might not be possible and I am not positive about my summer plans yet so the only solution to defentally see people that i miss is for Winnipeg and Ontario to become much much much much closer

Smushes from my brain

That title makes no sense - my brain is truly smushed.
Anywho this is what I am thinking right now. So my church has no youth group, and we have been desperatly srying to start one. So we are staring a bible study( once we find a book) and we are attempting to do things on Saturdays; like random activities or what may. Is this the proper way of doing this?? Also another church has invited us to go to their Youth Group too....so i don't think it's a bad idea to go on the contrary i thnk it would be a good idea. BUT it's on Saturdays SOO would it be best to just start with the bible study and go the the other churches youth group to start?? Or would that limit it's possiblities to grow.... I have no idea what I am talking about. I think it's a good idea to go to the youth group and I guess I am questioning the approch that the youth from my church is taking...any thoughts??